By Jørund F Pedersen (Own work) [CC BY-SA 3.0], via Wikimedia Commons

By Jørund F Pedersen (Own work) [CC BY-SA 3.0], via Wikimedia Commons

Fergie says praying at church redeemed her.

Singer and songwriter Fergie has been topping charts and selling out tours all over the world since her time with the hip-hop group The Black Eyed Peas. She has also seen equally amazing success with her solo career.

But fame and fortune is not all it seems, as Fergie opens up about her personal demons in her new song “A Little Work” the first single from her new Double Dutchess album.

In the video, Fergie narrates how she often felt watched and how difficult it was leaving in constant fear. She says, “I got to a point where I was seeing devils everywhere. Devil faces. Creatures that would appear to me would say, ‘Fly, fly, fly.’ I would constantly be in this state of listening to the messages that all of these creatures… what they were going to tell me. What their messages were and what I should do and life became almost like this whole game." 

The voices got so powerful that they made her want to “start screaming at everybody in the street”. It was then that she saw a church on Wilshire Boulevard in Los Angeles. In the video, she is seen entering this church, still in fear of her demons, and tries to hide in between the aisles. “This is it, they’re all out there,” she says to herself. The church was empty and she started going through the different aisles and started praying.

She continues sharing her story, saying that journaling and writing her thoughts down helped her deal with her issues. Since she finds it difficult to trust people, writing things down on paper has always been therapeutic for her. As a kind of homage to her late grandfather, who she calls her “guardian angel”, the video also shows flashbacks with her voiceover saying that she believes her grandfather guided her in the right direction.

At the end of this very personal music video, Fergie is shown walking out of the church, holding hands with her son Axl. She seems to be happier and more carefree, claiming that all of her demons lifted as she was walking out of that church. “It was almost like walking into the light,” she says. She realizes that she needed to honor herself, and she still works on it even today. 

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